I made a strawberry rhubarb pie

And I feel like eating the whole second half all by my self. Not because I feel the uncontrolable urge to satisfy a craving but because I feel the need to wallow in my own pathetic self pitty. I have working washing machine, yhey! I still have no hot water, boo! I still haven't gotten back down to 161, what did she just reveil her weight?!? Yes, the lowest I have gotten down to is 161 and then I gained again. If only I could break under the 160 mark. I haven't been under 160 in about 10 years which is why it must be so hard and my body is just fighting it like crazy. Sigh...