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I only lost 1/2 a pound this last week. I think I have now lost 3 or 4 pounds in the 7 weeks I've been busting my buns. I just don't get it. In seven weeks I should have lost 7 to 14 pounds. Why oh why has it only been 3 or 4? Why am I so behind and what am I doing wrong? I look back and think...I don't think I have done anything wrong. I think I have done what has been asked of me and it would only make since that I would loose more weight then that. Think about it...No cookies, no ice cream, no cheese, no butter, eating way less calories, and working out 5 days a week. I used to eat all of those things and hardly ever exercise. True, I have lost inches, my body looks and feels better, and I am enjoying working out. But why oh why can't I drop the pounds??? I'm working hard on not letting that wicked scale get me down.

I'm am afraid of what is going to happen when this is all over. Will I totally pig out because I "can". Will the inches and pounds slowly creep back on because I've became "too busy" or lazy. How do I maintain what I've gained, or lost for that matter, when this all over. If I do gain it back will I ever be able to get it off? I have heard that your metabolism slows as you get older but gesh, I'm only 30. I want to be fit, thin, and strong. I hope I get there and don't go back it.