shoes, bra, space...

Update number 1. My new New Balance shoes are great. My feet didn't start to feel numb till about 35 mins into the work out and they worked out great for Zumba and going for walks. I am so happy with these shoes.

Update number 2. At Zumba today I forgot my sports bra! Class wasn't till 9:00 so I got dresses but didn't put on the sports bra because I didn't need it for making pancakes and thought I would just put it on before I left for class. I was running late and had to jet out of the house just in time to make it to class. I was jumping around during the warm up wondering what felt different or strange. Then I realize just a regular bra and no sports bra. If you don't know me then you might not understand why this would be a big deal for me but I'm a DD and no sports bra is a big deal. I will not be forgetting again and I did get some strange looks as I was jumping around with a handful of boobs each time. I realize this isn't necessarily an update with all the bra details but the space problem is. I just don't think I'm going to win this one. People are just going to be in my space and I'm just going to be annoyed while trying not to be. I will be good and try not to hit people.

Yesterday I went out for dinner with my husband and kids. We went to a Mexican restaurant and they brought yummy warm chips with salsa to our table. I knew what I eat and had planned ahead but I lost it. I ate several chips, had cheese on a fajita, had guacamole and a tiny bit of sour cream, and one extra tortilla then I should have. Oh, and I ate 3 out of the 4 chocolate mints they gave us with the check. Part of me was like, "well we already went over, why don't you get some desert and a margarita too." The other part of me was like, "well, maybe bulimia isn't such a bad idea as originally thought." My smart brain said, "Jessica, quit panicking. This is not a big deal, you only went over a little which is way better then going over a lot. You get to try again tomorrow, you have been doing great for 6 weeks lets not loose it all over one day. And, No your not going to make yourself throw up! That is totally gross and could start something horrible." I have these conversations with myself often. I'm feeling pretty good about yesterday and have had a good day thus far.