Still feeling good

It has been 5 days scene I chose to reduce my food intake to the lowest level the SS suggested for me. As you remember the first time I went down this low I basically fell apart and cried the whole time and went back up to where the originally had me. My fifth day now on the reduced diet and I'm still feeling great!!!

I am so happy to be feeling so good right now but still amazed at how hard it was to get to this point. I think some counseling should have come with this study. Being over weight isn't just due to lack of exercise, over eating, poor diet, and too many oreos. There is a mental health component that goes along with or life style and eating habits. In the beginning of this study I wouldn't have said that but now that I've been through the hard parts I know it is true.

Seven weeks ago I was trying my best to only eat one treat or sweet thing a day but often eating more then just one or two a day. Now I'm eating one or two a week. Before it seemed important to me to eat a large dinner and now I'm satisfied with a light dinner and not getting seconds. I'm still trying to figure out why it was so hard to make these changes (among other changes but these I found particularly hard). I found my self saying to myself, "but this is what I do, I always do this." Why did I mentally feel like and think that I HAD to have what I always had? And why was it so emotionally hard to change it and do something different? If I decide to take the stairs instead of the elevator, walk after work, or one of those other little exercise tips people always try to give you, you don't have an emotional reaction. Limit what you eat, when you eat, and how much you eat and you will get an emotional reaction. I think our food makes us feel secure and it does comfort us because it has from the very beginning. How do we love our babies, make them comfortable and secure? We feed them! Of course our food and our eating habits are comforting and securing. I think under it all I was feeling...I don't know...threatened...bullied...uncared for...pushed... I don't know perhaps I'm reaching trying to figure this experience out but I don't have a mental health professional to talk this out with only lucky you.