I'm sorry that dress doesn't come in that size.

I have been on a diet once before. I was in good shape when I got married and then gained about 20 pounds with in the first 6 months of marriage. I didn't mean to gain weight, I just really didn't know how to cook or menu plan and the weight just added up quite fast. I didn't realize the problem till it was time for my friend's wedding. I went to the store to get fitted for the bride's maid dress. I grabbed the size 13 and couldn't even zip it up, actually I don't think I was even able to pull it up over my hips, it had to be pulled down over my head. I wasn't concerned and asked the sales lady for a size 15 or 16 and she said, "I'm sorry that dress doesn't come in that size, the largest is a 13." Ouch. I bought the size 13 and had 6 months to fit into it. I left the dress at my husband's parents house and tried it on every weekend and every weekend it would zip up just a little further till 3 weeks before the wedding it fit! I was over joyed and looked pretty darn good.

So what I do then to loose 20 pounds? The soup diet. Just thinking about it makes me feel sick but it worked. It was basically a vegetable soup that Jeremy and I made every Sunday and ate for the whole week for dinner. Each night we would add some other ingredient to make it different and try to make it yummy. We ate light through out the day and always skipped desert. Every other Sunday we would go out to eat and order what ever we wanted which was nice because we could leave the soup at home. It wasn't easy for me then either. I felt hungry, sad, and grouchy at about 3 or 4 weeks in. I lost the excited feeling of how great it is going to be to loose weight and I started to feel deprived. I remember sitting on the couch with Jeremy feeling quite down and crying about how hungry and tired I was and how I was such a looser for missing regular food so much. Jeremy lovingly put some peanut butter on some saltine crackers for me as a snack and told me everything will be fine and that me feelings would go a way after my body got used to eating less. I made it though the diet and was working out in a kickboxing class and lost all the weight with out regaining it till I got pregnant 4 years later.

I have been feeling tired, hungry, and down again, I even cried today. And I'm encouraged to remember that I made it through once before and was able to keep the wight off before. I am hoping and praying that my body will adjust quickly and I can get out of this funk ASAP!

Jeremy has also recommended that I hold off on 5K training for now because I'm not on a training diet but a weight loss diet which is why I could be struggling now. I will start to train again once my diet and body are ready. Thank you Jeremy.