159, 159, 159 woo-hoo

need I say more!

A new look for a new phase.

I thought I would change things up a bit.

A little all over the place

I am almost all done with my post testing. I have completed my fitness test and my dexa scan. All I have left is my blood test and I can't stop doing the diet or the exercise plan till the blood draw is complete. Once they have compiled all the info they will mail it to me or I can arrange an appointment to go over my results. I am pretty excited to find out how much my body changed other then how I look or what the scale tells me. The scale tells me I lost 6 pound. Yep through out this entire experience I only lost 6 pounds. I have a range of feelings about these 6 pounds but ultimately I am glad for what I was able to do.

Really I just lost all the rest of the "new" fat. The fat that I put on more recently with in the last 5-8 years. Now it is time to work on the "old" fat. This fat has been around since puberty. I have 10 pounds to loose to get to that ever famed high school weight. Why do we do that? Why is what I weighed at 18 supposed to be my goal now? When I did my post nutritional appointment the SS asked me what I plan to do. I told her I want to loose 10 more pounds for sure which I think is very doable and will be a good weight for me. She said that while loosing 10 more pounds would be good it would be even better to loose 15 pounds. What I wanted to hear was how well I did, it was such hard work, blah, blah, blah. But what I got was drop an other 15 pounds. Needles to say I didn't appreciate it but ok, it is the truth.

But, no, really? I NEED to loose an other 15 pounds? What if I like how I look now and am happy here? Honestly I am excited to do boot camp and see how I look in an other 4 weeks but what is the matter with how I look now? I think I look pretty darn good! I don't need some 125 pound college girl telling me I should loose 15 pounds, I just don't.

I am excited however, because the scale looks like it is going down again after being quite stuck. I have also suddenly been hungry again which tells me I am about to loose weight again. I am still following my eating plan which has plenty of food in it so don't worry I'm not starving.

Sorry for all the randomness but I have been feeling a little all over the place in case you couldn't tell.

Ahh! This is my official last week!

I can't believe it is over. It seemed like it was going to take forever but is almost over. I was spending quite a bit of time trying to figure out what I was going to do next. I'm certainly not going to just quite and go back to the way I used to be but I wasn't sure what to do until last week. I'm doing Bikini Boot Camp!

What is Bikini Boot Camp and do you have to wear a bikini? No, thank goodness I will not need to wear a bikini but according to Amy (awesome fitness instructor) I just might want to once I'm done. Well dear Amy, I'm pretty darn sure I will NEVER want to wear a bikini thanks to my first pregnancy but it will sure be nice to loose even more weight and get into bikini shape. I think this will be great because I will be working with a small group of women some of which I know and are friends so there will be the accountability and comradery that I have found very beneficial and it is going to be a fairly intense work out with Amy as our personal trainer. Honestly I'm both scared and excited. I think I should buy some ice pack and ibuprofen in order to be fully prepared for the first week of class at least.

Amy is also going to looking over our food plans and I'm interested to see if she will be making any changes in what the study staff have been having me eat. I'm still disappointed that I didn't make as much progress as I had hoped but like I said earlier progress is progress I'm so great full for have been a part of the study but I am also so excited to take it a step farther and achieve what I set out to accomplish.

I know a lot of you have been working on loosing weight and getting fit and I encourage you to keep it up and not quite even if your not getting the results you desire because the results will come eventually but they surly won't come if you quite.

And for those who have been asking, Yes, I will continue to blog about my weight loss journey at least through boot camp and then we will see after that. I might just be too busy all summer long running around in my bikini.

I lost 3 pounds

Sure I spent all day yesterday throwing up and in bed but progress is progress right?

It will soon come to an end

I just don't know what to think about it all ending. I have been part of something huge and am really going to miss all of the accountability and comradery. I know they are going to help me come up with a plan for continuing weigh loss if I choose or help me maintain what I'v accomplished but I'm nervous to be released out on my own.

I do know what I'm not going to do.
I'm not going to pig out
I'm not going to park my butt on a couch and watch all the pounds slowly come back
I'm not going to go back to my old way of eating
I'm NOT gaining this weight back and
I'm not stopping here

I want to loose more weight. I haven't achieved my wight loss goals yet and I still have more work to do. I had such a hard start in the beginning and feel like I wasted a whole month with out any weight loss and could have achieved more. Am disappointed in myself? Slightly. I have been given such a great opportunity and fear I didn't take full advantage. Hmmm. I did learn a ton and have really made huge gains. I am so grateful to have gotten this opportunity and am actually sad that this is the last month.

Gluten Free is me

I have been gluten free for 5 days. I feel quite better. Some of my typical stomach problems that I have had for ever seem to have subsided but the most amazing thing is the reduced cravings!

I'm sure you have read on my previous posts how I struggled with intense cravings. I would crave anything sugary and carb loaded. I haven't had a single craving sense Tuesday. I'm hoping this isn't just a strange fluck. If giving up gluten is all it takes to take care of the cravings I'll take it. Being gluten free thus far hasn't been too hard and I'm having fun trying out new things. This morning I made pancakes just as I always do on Saturday morning and they were fantastic. I admit the texture is a bit different but yummy nun-the-less. I can imagine that being gluten free could have it's challenges especially when going out to eat or having dinner at at a friend's house but so far so good. Maybe it will even help me loose more weight. We shall see.

It was a blast

Zumba tonight was packed with sweaty ladies. My sister Birdie came and my friend Lee-Ann. I think they had a good time and so did I. I would share more but I am having to type with one hand because my other hand it holding the power cord into the back of the computer.

Gluten free is going well by the way and I think I'm feeling staingly slightly better. I made a tasty gluten free lasagna tonight and no body knew but me;-)

Come zumba with me

for free this Wednesday night at 6:00.

Also I wanted to let you all know that I am feeling much better and I am still waiting on some lab results. So far I have been told that I have chronic inflammation and vasculitis. I need to get to the root of all the inflammation and find out what is causing it. I'm making some diet changes this month like eliminating gluten, coffee, and adding more omega 3's. These changes are supposedly going to help with inflammation, we shall see. My Dr. is also still checking to see if it is an autoimmune condition that is causing all of this. I am hoping and praying that the inflammation calms down because it can lead to stroke, anurism, heart disease, renal failure, diabetes, and arthritis non of which sound exciting. Hopefully we will get to the bottom of this soon. Sounds fun doesn't it...